Dec 15, 2011

I assumed that creating this blog would motivate me to refine my writing skills and work on some of the ideas that I have going on in my head. That has not been the case... But recently I have tried to work on a certain piece. I'm not sure what the final outcome will be and I have redone the Cera's January piece so many times now... I can't find a voice that I want for the character or how January is to be seen. The piece I am currently working on is titles 7 chapters because I decided to give my self a semi cookie cutter outline to fill in. It involves 7 words that I have found online and these words are ones that cannot be translated into English but they have been given an English definition. My favorite word is Mamihlapinantepei- “wordless yet meaningful look scared by two people who both desire to initiate something but are both reluctant to start.” This is one of the chapter titles (each word has a chapter based upon it). I love this word because I saw a guy at the bus stop while I was with my cousin and he had a nice ass. Football player quality and lucky for me he had an equally attractive face and beautiful hair. We stared at each other for a long time while on the bus and yet no one spoke up! I think we both missed out on a wonderful opportunity and a chance at meeting a wonderful individual. This happened a month or so ago and I'm still regretting not taking initiative. So I decided to write about it in 7 Chapters but this will be a happy story! I'm at a point now where I want happy endings, but later I'll go back to my darkness and continue with stories that will probably piss people off, "Did the little engine make it to the top big sister?" "Nope, he stayed at the bottom of the hill imagining what it would be like to make it to the top."

I read a book a few years back with an ending like that. You hope that the main character will get to live happily ever after but she ends up losing everything and is depressed. That story made me quite angry but it inspired me to start a lineage of unhappy endings. Hopefully they won't end up on some high school reading list, many of those folks are depressed enough. They should be motivated to success not depressed into it. Ok I've gone off on a tangent thinking about the little engine that could, but didn't because he decided to daydream about it instead of doing it. Fare thee well my viewers, I will find an interesting 7 Chapter's snippet and share it. Once I stop being the little engine that daydreamed.